Happy weekend!

Happy weekend all of you. Happy long holiday. 

Malaysia ni memang banyak sangat holiday nya.

Have a great weekend ahead and bring happiness within yourself.

Don't let small things ruin your life, your love life, your friendship.

We are not perfect.

Learn to smile mummy, you don't have to carry the world's burden.

Sorry for everything children.

I am not perfect mummy, honestly tried to become a sporting and supportive one!

Thank you for the love husband, anak - anak, family and friends.

YOU ALL mean world to me!

Thanks. 

Independent

Beberapa minggu kebelakangan ni, mummy tried to be independent without daddy to be with you both. Sebab dua - dua dah besar, rasanya tak ada banyak issues just kena handle "kebaikan yang berlipat ganda" dari kedua - dua anak.

When I see you both, it reminds me of myself and pak ngah. Memang sama. Beza agak rapat sikit dari kamu berdua. Bila mummy naik angin masa kecik (macam kakak) atok akan asingkan mummy dari pak ngah and pak ngah akan pergi ke nenek. Same goes you both. Kakak akan ikut daddy ke office every Saturday supaya tak ada calar balar kat muka adik. Adik akan bermagnet dengan mummy.

As we grew up, we (mummy dan pak ngah) loves each other very much, till now and no matter what had happened to him, he is still my baby brother. Oppsss, uncle is my manja brother. Acu is my garang sister!

I need to be independent because I believe that if we think that we can't, we will never be can. If we got to depend on others too much, we could suffer thinking we can't do this, can't do that (I am talking about myself, my children!)

And I need to move one, to be an extraordinary people (always believe that we are different, we are special from others) we need to sacrifice many. What others said about us actually NONE is our business even sometimes it hurt. You know, terluka bahasa melayunya.

Kita dah buat baik dah rasanya kat orang tapi manusia tu lemah. Again. I always repeat this, human is weak. Always remember that. Tak ada satu orang pun sempurna and same goes to us. 

Mummy dah boleh hantar hero mummy and ambil by myself, even masa kakak ada. Walaupun rasanya macam dah terjerit - jerit macam monyet dalam kereta, jangan usik itu dan ini. Asalkan he knows that he can't open the door. For safety, child lock semua pintu each time drive adik by myself.

Adik kalau jumpa kakak every weekend dia akan jadi adik yang patuh sebab dia nak kakak main dengan dia. So apa - apa yang kakak buat dia tiru. Tadi dia ambil pensel kakak dan conteng dinding rumah. Kakak jerit dan terkebil - kebil dia. Dia cuma akan pukul kakak bila dia dah marah sangat. Hahahaha. So far, he can keep it cool bila kakak ketuk dia ke apa ke, just cakap "sakit".

Last weekend kakak minta nak colour painting guna pasir - pasir yang colourful tu. So colourful bot dia kan. Ikut suka kakak la. Yang penting kakak happy.

Kakak juga dah boleh tulis nama sendiri. Hermmmmm, tapi kena improve lagi handwriting ni, buruk ni, takpe belum 5 years lagi, hahahahahahah.

Kena bagi excuse, 'marsya kecik lagi, tu tulisan tak cantik' kalau tak, nangis kalau cakap tak cantik, habis satu rumah dia amuk nanti.

Kakak study dalam bilik kat klm. Khusyuk dia menulis, siapkan homework, warna - warna. Harapnya she will loves education and studying like I do.

Sunday mummy tried so much bagi excuse kat daddy to wake up late as he could. So kita selalunya akan breakfast dulu. Since you all berdua ni dah besar, mummy bawa breakfast ke kedai je. Restoran daddy closed every Sunday, so Ahad is a rest day for daddy and kita bertiga makan - makan dulu before lunch.

Today I pick up this little lady. Mula - mula dia kata nak makan kek, sampai di tempat berkenaan, tukar menu nak ais krim pulak. Oh mai. Dia kalau tukar fikiran memang like her mummy! Eh dan dan tukar. Hahahhahahah.

Padahal sepanjang jalan dari klm tadi, mintak makan benda lain. Her attitude memang unpredictable, suka tengok tv sekarang then like zombie, tak berkelip - kelip mata and favourite channel 611 (kat klm sahaja). Kalau kat rumah, weekend, dia tengok tv3 kartun yang pagi - pagi tu. Then main, naik basikal dengan adik.

Sunday outing day, pergilah mana - mana sebab kena bawa anak keluar kalau tak nanti diorang boring. Mummy pun boring, inikan pulak anak. Friday and weekend mummy cuma study malam, Monday to Thursday pagi sampai petang and malam also.

May is going to be a very busy month for mummy. I got this 6 weeks innovation things training plus ada few places nak pergi dengan you all.

For kakak and adik, my advice is, please go for what you want, don't limit yourself, ini tak boleh itu tak boleh. Life is never stopped, why kita kena ada kat bumi ni kalau malas. Jangan jadi malas, kena berusaha bersungguh - sungguh. Berdikarilah, I will not with you forever.

Why eh mummy write all this?

I hope 20 years from now this writing will be here and you both can read this.

Ambil positive sahaja, yang rasa negative, buangkan!

Bye!

Pillar of Strength

Two years ago, I delivered you. A year before that I am in the middle of dilemma on adding a new family member. Nak ke tak nak, nak ke tak nak. Cam tula. After you were born, I am again become a new mummy. One more baby. I swear to myself that I will take care of you, without dependent of others (nanny of course la jaga by weekdays). I mean with  no helping from a family. Pantang pun tinggal di rumah sendiri. I talked to you a lot, since you are baby. 

You grown up cheeky, (that is what people said) and also a bit naughty, but easy to understand instruction and yet still obey what mummy asked you to do. However, there were times you said, tak nak, means no. Tak nak buat. "Alaaaaa" (kalau tak dapat something).

There goes you, my son in my world, the pillar of my strength. 

Tetapi masih kamu lagi nakal, bersepahkan rumah (tak kira rumah sendiri atau rumah nenek-nenek kamu) dan tak pernah duduk secara diam, atau tengok tv atau main handphone, That is not your hobby at all. Tak ada focus. Dimana sahaja, Di rumah, dalam kereta. Dan the only shut time when you are sleeping. Nenek kuantan kata pening dengan kamu, nenek klm kata kamu jangan datang lagi kalau sepahkan rumah.

It is a joke, but yet mummy felt heart broken sometimes. Should I just locked you in one room so that you have no space to did mess, I don't know.

Mummy already asked daddy to used 'maid room' as your play room. Mummy dah  pujuk daddy and he seems agree, but hopefully he got time to prepared the room for you and for kakak too. So that both of you ada space for play.

Bukan main dalam bilik, kat depan tv and etc.

So 4th April, we prepare a small birthday party for you. 

You are already 2 this year adik.(2/4/15)

Mummy loves you so much, more than words even can tell, loves you the whole world.

Takpe kalau nakal-nakal waktu kecik, nanti dah besar jadi good boy okey.

Life has taught me things. 

Things that make us cry sometimes.

But we need to wake up, be strong, be prepared, do it again, whenever we felt we failed. 

And Allah Almighty always with us.

You both (kakak and adik) are my pillar of strength.

I should not separate you both, that is a mistake.

I promise I will make things right from now on.

It is because sometimes I feel that I am not capable, but I believe that am stronger than I think.