Pillar of Strength

Two years ago, I delivered you. A year before that I am in the middle of dilemma on adding a new family member. Nak ke tak nak, nak ke tak nak. Cam tula. After you were born, I am again become a new mummy. One more baby. I swear to myself that I will take care of you, without dependent of others (nanny of course la jaga by weekdays). I mean with  no helping from a family. Pantang pun tinggal di rumah sendiri. I talked to you a lot, since you are baby. 

You grown up cheeky, (that is what people said) and also a bit naughty, but easy to understand instruction and yet still obey what mummy asked you to do. However, there were times you said, tak nak, means no. Tak nak buat. "Alaaaaa" (kalau tak dapat something).

There goes you, my son in my world, the pillar of my strength. 

Tetapi masih kamu lagi nakal, bersepahkan rumah (tak kira rumah sendiri atau rumah nenek-nenek kamu) dan tak pernah duduk secara diam, atau tengok tv atau main handphone, That is not your hobby at all. Tak ada focus. Dimana sahaja, Di rumah, dalam kereta. Dan the only shut time when you are sleeping. Nenek kuantan kata pening dengan kamu, nenek klm kata kamu jangan datang lagi kalau sepahkan rumah.

It is a joke, but yet mummy felt heart broken sometimes. Should I just locked you in one room so that you have no space to did mess, I don't know.

Mummy already asked daddy to used 'maid room' as your play room. Mummy dah  pujuk daddy and he seems agree, but hopefully he got time to prepared the room for you and for kakak too. So that both of you ada space for play.

Bukan main dalam bilik, kat depan tv and etc.

So 4th April, we prepare a small birthday party for you. 

You are already 2 this year adik.(2/4/15)

Mummy loves you so much, more than words even can tell, loves you the whole world.

Takpe kalau nakal-nakal waktu kecik, nanti dah besar jadi good boy okey.

Life has taught me things. 

Things that make us cry sometimes.

But we need to wake up, be strong, be prepared, do it again, whenever we felt we failed. 

And Allah Almighty always with us.

You both (kakak and adik) are my pillar of strength.

I should not separate you both, that is a mistake.

I promise I will make things right from now on.

It is because sometimes I feel that I am not capable, but I believe that am stronger than I think.